Hey guys !! Hope your all doing well. Its been a while since Ive updated, Its been a super busy time. Ive been having a great time on cam with you guys every day and been soo busy with all kinds of surprises which ill post about in my next blog post. I want to take a moment to post about something clearly important to me and my heart.

September 20th is my birthday, ironically it is also National Lymphoma Awareness month. As most of you know December 24th, 2010 I was diagnosed with Cancer. Lymphoma. Yes xmas eve.. its not a fun time for me. Its been hell, I have good days and bad days but I am very thankful for all of you. You have been amazing in your support and Love for me and I appreciate every single one of you.

I went back and forth about whether or not I was going to post this video because it was very personal and very hard for me. But as you all know, I am always very open to you about what is going on with me good and bad. I love you to see the me I am which is the same off cam and on cam. My best and worst times have always been shared with you. A lot of people said not to a lot of people said to but for me I wanted to I want to inspire and help anyone who is going through this. I want them to know that they arent they only ones and that everything they are feeling is normal. When I first got diagnosed I didnt want to burden anyone I just kinda hid myself from the world but you need to surround yourself with positve people and just talking about it helps.

An update on me, I have started radiation treatment this week. I went this week and have hated every moment of it. But we have to do things we hate sometimes in order to get better. So im gonna do it with a smile and then come and relax with you guys online where I feel the most happy. I know what im about to face again sucks terribly and its gonna be tough on me but hey im a fighter my entire life and I will continue to fight till i WIN !! Yall know i dont give up on shit lol

Ill explain the video in a moment but first  I want to give you some facts about lymphoma and I hope that if your going through this or if someone you love is you will help or donate to the cause.

A FEW FACTS ABOUT LYMPHOMA

* ITS GREEEN .. the ribbon that is I love green so everyone get your green out and wear green and tweet me pics of you wearing green to support this month @taystevens is my twitter id love to see you all show your support. A lime green ribbon represents awareness and unity in the fight against all Lymphomas

*In the United States each year, some 54,000 people are diagnosed with NHL and 7,000 are diagnosed HL. It is the most common type of blood cancer in the US. The European Union sees over 50,000 cases of NHL every year

*Lymphoma can occur at any age, including childhood. Hodgkin’s disease is most common in two age groups: young adults 16-34 years of age and in older people 55 years of age and older. Non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma is more likely to occur in older people.

*Lymphoma is a type of cancer that begins in immune system cells called lymphocytes. Like other cancers, lymphoma occurs when lymphocytes are in a state of uncontrolled cell growth and multiplication.

*Cancer symptoms are quite varied and depend on where the cancer is located, where it has spread, and how big the tumor is. Lymphoma usually first presents with swelling in the neck, underarm, or groin. Additional swelling may occur where other lymph nodes are located such as in the spleen. In general, enlarged lymph nodes can encroach on the space of blood vessels, nerves, or the stomach, leading to swollen arms and legs, to tingling and numbness, or to feelings of being full, respectively.

*Lymphoma symptoms also include nonspecific symptoms such as fever, chills, unexplained weight loss, night sweats, lethargy, and itching

*The treatment of lymphoma depends on the type of lymphoma diagnosed and also on the stage of the cancer, its location, the extent of symptoms and the physical condition and health of the patients. Radiotherapy is a preferred treatment for patients with both types of lymphoma. The other treatment options include chemotherapy, bone marrow or stem cell transplants, radio immunotherapy or biologic therapy

*LAST BUT MOST IMPORTANT FACT… IM GONNA KICK THE SHIT OUT OF #CANCER’s ASS right ? RIGHT

You know there are some really catty and evil people out there that either didnt believe I was sick or have come into my chatroom and wished me the worse said mean things but those people dont mean anything to me.

I surround myself and am blessed to have great people in my life. Thank you all so much for your never ending love. This has truly opened my eyes to the value of life and who really deserves to be in it. To the amazing friends and to everyone who I reached out to me, shared their stories with me, its my turn to share it with you.

The video which is part one of two is pretty self explanitory but was really tough. I have many more to come. I wasnt alone on this journey you guys were always with me. I love you all so much.

See you all ONLINE lets remember what makes me me

BOUNCY FUN HAPPY TIMES . Be THERE or be square .

xoxox

Tay

I picked the songs in this vid for a reason… you all know music is important to me and i love nicki minaj these lyrics were of particular importance to me…

It’s a joke, it’s a game,
Why am I still keeping score?
I’m in pain, I’m ashamed
I’m a woman, hear me roar

and of course….

This time won’t you save me
This time won’t you save me
Baby I can feel myself givin up
Givin up
This time won’t you save me
This time won’t you save me
Baby I can feel myself givin up
Givin up

DONT GIVE UP EVER ! ITS WHATS ON THE INSIDE THAT COUNTS !