Hey guys !! Happy Monday !! I had an amazing birthday week ty all so much for all the cards gifts, flowers, love and support ! Its been amazing. I had a great bday and i loved being online bouncing with you guys πŸ™‚ You have made my brithday soo kick ass !! My best friend kidnapped me and took me out to a gun range for my bday which was soo fun cause boy did I ever need to let out my frustrations… and I have pretty good aim I killed this zombie bitch lol πŸ™‚ As you can tell in the photos. And of course we went out and had an amazing arabic dinner πŸ™‚ yummm and I sang with the singer it was just a great experience we sang a song in honour of my dad and i was a bit tipsy lol ok a lot tipsy but i still apparently got all the words right :). I couldnt have asked for a better bday.. I also got secret suprise tickets to the patriots vs bills game this past sunday ! Β I was also on the Dean Blundell show and im so glad you all loved the video and that it all touched you very much. It meant so much to me to know that I was helping in any way πŸ™‚

People asked what my birthday wishes were…. I got everything I wanted and more.

I would say I wish that I beat this cancer and come out stronger. I wish we all loved with an open heart and I wish that we all live each day like its our last. There is no time for petty crap.

I still consider it my bday week but im feeling giving sooooooooooo I am online live and free in video right now πŸ™‚ so grab your free screenname here and come join me not only do u get a free ty pacakge but u get special personal goodies heheheh πŸ™‚ Im feeling super bouncy the weekends here lets play !!!

Me getting ready to shoot this zombie to her re-death

me holding big used to that πŸ˜‰ I know how to handle BIG guns πŸ™‚

Me after I deaded the zombie and her little dog too πŸ™‚


Happy saturday guys !! Im pumped about the UFC fights tonight and then tomorrows football game make sure you look for me on tv im @ the 10 yard line first row woooooooooot ! Β Its a good weekend and good thing im still celebrating at my free fanclub with you guys πŸ™‚ make sure you get your free screenname now for hourly goodies and tons of fun !! I give one hell of a show hahah πŸ™‚

I know a lot of you have been waiting for me to answer some formspring questions since its been forever and you all know i love to share my life with you :).. so some formspring on this saturday πŸ™‚ I hope your all enjoying the weekend :). Im LIVE AND FREE IN VID RIGHT NOW πŸ™‚


1.Β I just got to say I think ur amazing and tastful at what u do. Do u still live in T.O?

Yes, still in Toronto but I travel very frequently all over. Thank you for the compliment I’ve always been me πŸ™‚ I do things a certain way and I havent changed that for anyone ever :).

2.Β I am one of your close friends… I think I am developing feelings for your ex-boyfriend… do you care if we hook up?

Short answer : Nope lol .Since you posted anonomously im going to say that if you knew my ex you probably wouldnt want to be with him but by all means go ahead, hes all yours :). I think that a close friend would probably tell me to my face, thats what i would want..there is something written in girl code about that. But hes MY EX for a reason…hoook up and good luck with that one πŸ™‚ you’ll need it.

3.Β What depresses you the most about this horrible world…?

The world isnt horrible, horrible things happen. Its how we come out and how we survive them that matters. There is tons of beauty in the world we just have to be willing to see it. Of course I hate sickness, injustice, judgment, and all the bad things happening to amazing people. But if all of us just gave up on seeing the beauty in the world we would never get ahead. We all get depressed from time to time, hec I have cancer but everything happens for a reason, the world is beautiful embrace it.

4.What mafia movie would you like to be in?

Omg, lol I love mafia movies sooo much. I would have loved to actually be in the Sopranos, but as far as movies def goodfellas, casino, scarface, the departed, the godfather, the untouchables…sooo many lol πŸ™‚

5.What kind of Asian food do you like?

I have always liked terriyaki but i recently tried sushi for the first time and omg I am addicted. I am not a fan of seafood but I will have shrimp and california rolls a good friend of mine even let me try EEL it was nuts.. I loved it Β I love katsuya lol when im in LA i take everyone there and I just love it ! mmmm

6. I think your full of shit… having cancer and being this positive give me a break. I hope you die of it.

Ty… way to be careful this universe has a way of giving what you get. I feel bad for you I hope that you are never hated the way you hate people. Its hard to be positive when facing this and fighting for your life but Id rather do that then just give up. You do what you want in your life and I will do mine.

7. What three words would u use to describe yourself ?Β 

Well, the tattoo on my back says destined, driven, determined that was after i lost my weight. But id have to say, strong, loyal and a hell of a fighter and a damn good woman πŸ˜‰

8.Β If you could go back in time and change 3 things that would affect you later in life, what would those 3 things be?Β 

I wouldnt change a thing. Look my life it was meant to be this way, if it was meant that I have cancer its for a reason. If i was meant to lose my father at a young age then it was for a reason. I am a very cultured strong woman. If i could bring my father back would I ? of course, but we all know thats not possible. Its about playing the hand your dealt the best way you can. Thats why im such a kick ass poker player right ! So no regrets..NONE.

9.Β Would you like my 12 inch inside of your vaginal area ?

Hang on let me think for a moment …. yup got it that would be a NO. LOL dude your an anonymous poster be more creative.

10. Do you drink or smoke?

I dont smoke never have, i tried it a few times when i was younger but it just wasnt me. I def drink socially i love my bacardi and diet coke. I dont drink any of those sugary drinks but every now and then an ice cold beer I LOVE. πŸ™‚

11. Β Right now…do u believe in love ? Do u want someone in your life ? Or are you too afraid of getting hurt ?

Im gonna leave it at a nice and simple NO.

12. Song of the moment ?

You all know music gets me through sooo much.. so its hard to choose, but Lil wayne….how to love and Rhianna California king bed

come now !! im LIVE and FREE in video πŸ™‚



Hey guys its been sooo busy since I have gotten back from LA that I havent even had a chance to catch up about it. La was great exxxotica was great I always have a great time meeting my fans and it was soo much fun hanging out with you guys :). I love being around my girls and doing all our girly stuff hehe :).

I also loved streaming live to you guys while i was there πŸ™‚ it was soo much fun u know i LOVE meeting my fans :). I got to hang with the absolutley amazing and sweet rubberdoll, of course kick ass sara jay, the sweetest karen cougarΒ  and the gorgeous jenna prestley… and so many more of the usual suspects.

Of course me and Shyla had our fun lol πŸ™‚ Shes such a handfull of laughs and good times i love her lol. My canadian girly πŸ™‚

I was also doing some amazing shooting in LA for lots of biggggggg things to come πŸ™‚ So keep your eyes open πŸ™‚ heheh

Ty all for coming out to see me it means so much the next one is in New Jersey and I cant wait I love New Jersey so much.

Im free in video and ready to play so get your free screenname here and lets have some fun !!




This post is just to remind us to cherish life. This was a sad day around the world. This is to honour all those who lost loved ones in the 9/11 attacks and those brave firemen, officers and citizens who gave their lives and everything they could to save lives. We all need to take a moment and hug and hold the people in our lives and show them how much we love them. I pray for the families and all those who lost their lives and loved ones in the 9/11 attacks. God bless America.

In honour of that some Red White and Blue Pics for you. Everyone should wear red white and blue today.

See you all online love you guys.




Hey guys !! Hope your all doing well. Its been a while since Ive updated, Its been a super busy time. Ive been having a great time on cam with you guys every day and been soo busy with all kinds of surprises which ill post about in my next blog post. I want to take a moment to post about something clearly important to me and my heart.

September 20th is my birthday, ironically it is also National Lymphoma Awareness month. As most of you know December 24th, 2010 I was diagnosed with Cancer. Lymphoma. Yes xmas eve.. its not a fun time for me. Its been hell, I have good days and bad days but I am very thankful for all of you. You have been amazing in your support and Love for me and I appreciate every single one of you.

I went back and forth about whether or not I was going to post this video because it was very personal and very hard for me. But as you all know, I am always very open to you about what is going on with me good and bad. I love you to see the me I am which is the same off cam and on cam. My best and worst times have always been shared with you. A lot of people said not to a lot of people said to but for me I wanted to I want to inspire and help anyone who is going through this. I want them to know that they arent they only ones and that everything they are feeling is normal. When I first got diagnosed I didnt want to burden anyone I just kinda hid myself from the world but you need to surround yourself with positve people and just talking about it helps.

An update on me, I have started radiation treatment this week. I went this week and have hated every moment of it. But we have to do things we hate sometimes in order to get better. So im gonna do it with a smile and then come and relax with you guys online where I feel the most happy. I know what im about to face again sucks terribly and its gonna be tough on me but hey im a fighter my entire life and I will continue to fight πŸ™‚ till i WIN !! Yall know i dont give up on shit lol πŸ™‚

Ill explain the video in a moment but first Β I want to give you some facts about lymphoma and I hope that if your going through this or if someone you love is you will help or donate to the cause.


* ITS GREEEN .. the ribbon that is I love green so everyone get your green out and wear green and tweet me pics of you wearing green to support this month @taystevens is my twitter id love to see you all show your support.Β A lime green ribbon represents awareness and unity in the fight against all Lymphomas

*In the United States each year, some 54,000 people are diagnosed with NHL and 7,000 are diagnosed HL. It is the most common type of blood cancer in the US. The European Union sees over 50,000 cases of NHL every year

*Lymphoma can occur at any age, including childhood. Hodgkin’s disease is most common in two age groups: young adults 16-34 years of age and in older people 55 years of age and older. Non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma is more likely to occur in older people.

*Lymphoma is a type of cancer that begins in immune system cells called lymphocytes. Like other cancers, lymphoma occurs when lymphocytes are in a state of uncontrolled cell growth and multiplication.

*Cancer symptoms are quite varied and depend on where the cancer is located, where it has spread, and how big the tumor is. Lymphoma usually first presents with swelling in the neck, underarm, or groin. Additional swelling may occur where other lymph nodes are located such as in the spleen. In general, enlarged lymph nodes can encroach on the space of blood vessels, nerves, or the stomach, leading to swollen arms and legs, to tingling and numbness, or to feelings of being full, respectively.

*Lymphoma symptoms also include nonspecific symptoms such as fever, chills, unexplained weight loss, night sweats, lethargy, and itching

*The treatment of lymphoma depends on the type of lymphoma diagnosed and also on the stage of the cancer, its location, the extent of symptoms and the physical condition and health of the patients. Radiotherapy is a preferred treatment for patients with both types of lymphoma. The other treatment options include chemotherapy, bone marrow or stem cell transplants, radio immunotherapy or biologic therapy


You know there are some really catty and evil people out there that either didnt believe I was sick or have come into my chatroom and wished me the worse said mean things but those people dont mean anything to me.

I surround myself and am blessed to have great people in my life. Thank you all so much for your never ending love. This has truly opened my eyes to the value of life and who really deserves to be in it. To the amazing friends and to everyone who I reached out to me, shared their stories with me, its my turn to share it with you.

The video which is part one of two is pretty self explanitory but was really tough. I have many more to come. I wasnt alone on this journey you guys were always with me. I love you all so much.

See you all ONLINE πŸ™‚ lets remember what makes me me πŸ™‚

BOUNCY FUN HAPPY TIMES . Be THERE or be square :).



I picked the songs in this vid for a reason… you all know music is important to me and i love nicki minaj these lyrics were of particular importance to me…

It’s a joke, it’s a game,
Why am I still keeping score?
I’m in pain, I’m ashamed
I’m a woman, hear me roar

and of course….

This time won’t you save me
This time won’t you save me
Baby I can feel myself givin up
Givin up
This time won’t you save me
This time won’t you save me
Baby I can feel myself givin up
Givin up





Hey guys !! DO YOU LOVE IT !! My new blog look πŸ™‚ wooot !! More on that in a next postΒ 

How appropriate that my NEW photo set comes out today !! ITs all about big boobs going to war :). Me and my big guns went to war today when I went in for my treatment πŸ™‚ Thank you all for being there for me. This was such a fun shoot its like i was an assassin looking for the perpetrator i love shooting these type of shoots its so fun :). I told you some big things were coming πŸ™‚ lets start with guns lol ! And me giving the finger to cancer and anyone else thats fucks with me πŸ™‚

So ALL FREE FANCLUB members and anyone who gets a FREE SCREENNAME gets to get full acess to the full uncensored set and can pick any pic from this set and have it autographed and sent with the ty package πŸ™‚

I always bring out the BIG GUNS πŸ™‚ Me and guns equals a good time lol πŸ™‚ hehehe I have been having a blast online with you guys and will be online every day after the hospital πŸ™‚ love you guys tons πŸ™‚

Remember the hot video and full uncensored set is available free when u get your freescreenname πŸ™‚